Self-Reflecting

 Self-Reflecting

November 15, 2020

I think there’s beauty in the moments that you recognize yourself in something or someone. A moment of realization of who or how you are. It’s not uncommon for these moments to be a negative reflection of self. Over the last week I’ve found myself shining a light on things that I think I can do better on. While most days I’m grateful for the love of those who surround me, I found myself reflecting on how I contribute this back to them. Do I fill their cups the same way that they fill mine? Am I selfishly receiving and not giving that same compassion in return? Upon this reflection I recognize there are areas in my life where I can do better. Recently I’ve heard the needs of someone in their requests of me, only to remind me of the same requests from someone else. My self-reflection here leads me to think about where I’m falling short in meeting these requests. Oftentimes we may feel like we’re giving all that we have to give or in a certain moment take ownership for requests we didn’t actually fill, while the tanks of our loved ones sit empty. This thought doesn’t lead me to think that maybe I’m not enough, or incapable, but it challenges me to view myself in the light of another. Taking on a perspective that isn’t my own, or having a compassion for something that may not be my own passion. Love requires a certain level of vulnerability that will not only require you to be vulnerable with other people, but also with yourself. We all know that self-love is the best love, but there are still ways to love yourself in the midst of reflection and improvement of what we may view as our shortcomings. These moments should never take away from the credit you should give yourself for being self-aware. Aware that there are things about you that could change, not for conformity, but to better love others around you. So I challenge you to challenge yourself to always be reflective and aware. Tap into what makes you tick and what adjustments could be made to make you tick better. 

With love, AW

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