Seasons Change.

 Seasons Change.

January 29, 2021

First blog I’ve shared within the new year - so happy new year to you! Walking into this year felt like any other year, but I’ve made my focus on being intentionally in all that I do this year. So far so good. Before the new year I discovered a podcast called Self Care and Chill with Maui (shout out to Maui if you’re reading this!) and when listening to this podcast I feel like I am receiving all of the answers to the questions I’ve been asking of myself. While I know there is still work to be done - like healing and learning, I find myself on the other side of things this year. Maui’s podcast is not for the sensitive, she is direct and unfiltered in a way that most of us should appreciate. She’s the voice of a friend who isn’t going to tell you what you want to hear. 

Through her podcast I find myself checking the boxes of the processes I’ve put myself through. The process of self-care and self-love, both the overall process of finding and grounding yourself in exactly who you are. I was intentional of these practices starting in October 2019 after my Dad passed. I knew I was walking into a life that was new to me - divorced and single for the first time in seven years, so I knew I wanted to be whole or a lot more put together before I found myself with someone new. I took that time to embrace and feed all of the things that were me. I bought myself flowers weekly, stepped up my cooking game, took adventures on my own, planned dates for myself, and attended a few concerts all on my own. Doing these things without wishing I had someone to do them for or with me felt like the ultimate satisfaction. I was happy to do these things because I loved them and they didn’t have to stop just because I didn’t have anyone to do them with.

There is definitely a new season on the horizon for me and I’m looking forward to it more than anything. As a year of intention - I’m being intentional about how I spend my time. Making time for so many things that make me happy - friends, family, music, FOOD, and maybe someone special :) As we’ve all learned popularily from Will & Jada and many other insightful sources, we are responsible for our own peace, joy, and happiness and it will always be up to us to find fulfillment within ourselves. It may be the hardest of all journeys because sometimes it can be hard or out of habit to look within and not out. Challenged journey or not, we owe it to ourselves to be whole and happy when we find someone who compliments, enjoys, and appreciates the best parts of us that we’ve already discovered. 

With love, AW

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